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Saturday, May 9, 2009


harlo...my official second time of posting in my second blog.had decided to open one-again. not mentioning after all my failures of going through the details of making one.
so perhaps, i shall be a bit blurr, but just a hint on whats with me:
so the one undenied question would be why is it called the strings of white lies?
1) this is to let others noe dat many ppl don't blog about the truth bout their life, neither do i. but i tend to somehow turn the truth over and TRY to make it a little diff. tho' .
2) all the lies are tied up in a bundle, trashed somewhere, & others shall find it for you someday...
lastly*i just love crapping* dats explains the crap above & the URL...
lately have been so hectic under this umbrella of my scheduled life,
not bothering to know if i had or had'nt done a few things along the way[im kinda getting used to that tho']
gosh,i just hope that the 30th of june comes soon.
cant wait to grab my bags & run far,far away.
no kiddin' to cf camp of course.
and thank God for that, i successfully escaped from the pandu puteri camp,
which pn.lo came all the way with her high-pitch voice to my class,
calling everyone outside,
i was like wth,?
dun wanna go.
end of the story.
plus, had been finding sum very interesting things to do in the comp lately,
ex. bloggin.
it has been my first thought when it comes to comp,
a desire i would never be able to compare to my craving for American Idol too,=)
[ grinning vainly] lee ann's too. of course, when it comes to AI,
no one does it better than yours truly:
annjill
lee ann
tfany
trust me, you guys dun wanna noe wad happens when we go despo for the results in skul.
thursday 8.45
me: eh, tfany the results for AI come out ade ah?
tfany: i itink so...lets go use the skul comp
[both of us ran out]
[standing there,right in front of the staffroom, wondering with a few innocent poses]
tfany: eh, gal! u can help us type www.americanidol.com ah???
u see, we had brains too....since we came out without permission, we decided to make the afternoon session girls the kambing korban.
indian gal: ok...

so dissapointed! =( the results aint revealed yet!

back in class...
lee ann: so who went out??

[looking sad & dissapointed]
*dno...din see yet*

10.00 am
tfany: eh, lets go now.
me& her ran like hell all the way there.

PN SUGUNA
like wtf?? too late for a u-turn dont you tink??/
so tfany got super freaked out & started running down the stairs,leaving me alone there...
i react slow to ppl like puan suguna i guess,
bottom line: we had to run one whole round in skul just to avoid her.
& thank God for mr tham,
i find it hard to belif dat he actually were in this thing with us too,
he ignored us,
which was really good of him,
-ok im not his fan or anytin k?? [ i would commit suicide if i were ] bang bang. im dead*


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Dear heart,
I’m in love again,
prepare yourself for the worst.
And if you end up breaking,
all I can say is I warne
d you.
Sincerely,
Me

I am so tired of crying
I am in desperate need of love
I'll just keep on lying
becauses right now, that seems to be just enough.


im going crazy....with American Idol Fever.
is there ever such disease?


It's gonna be Danny Gokey all the way!!!!!!!!
woots! im going nuts! but...Hooray!!!

what we could have been, 8:14 AM.

One heartbreak;
Two eyes crying
Three words never said again
Four hands that won't be held
Five mornings you'll pass in the halls
Six love notes, ripped & torn
Seven days a week you'll think of him
Eight sad songs a night before bed
Nine wishes that never came true
Ten years before he realizes
That you were the one.

I laugh at silly movies, & I`m stubborn as a
stone, Yeah, I criticize my body, I wonder if
I`m ready to ever be alone, I`m just like everybody
else
, yes I cry just like everybody else, I don`t
know what you believe, What you think or what
you see, But this is a part of me.


im glad we had the times together, just to laugh
and sing a song. seems like we just got started,
then before you knew it, the times we had
together, were gone.
-dr. seuss

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i am coming to terms with the fact that
loving someone requires a leap of faith,
and that a soft landing is never guaranteed.

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There are some things you can't
bring yourself to leave,
until they leave you.

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the things we crave the most,
destroy us the quickest.

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getting over you was the hardest
thing i ever had to do.
and i dont think i can do it again.

- friends


We'll grow up, we'll move on. But for now, this is where we are.

kisses sparkle z55471121

i can't promise you that i can fix your

problems;; but what i can promise is

that you won’t have to face them alone


Throughout life you will meet one person who
is unlike any other. This person is the one you
could forever talk to. They understand you in a
way that no one else does or ever could. This
person is your soul mate and best friend.
Don't ever let him go .

all i know is he's the guy i sit up every night thinking about
& when i'm with him I feel happy to be alive,
like i can do anything..that's what I feel love is....
..when i'm better because he's here.

everyone cries . - - . everyone weeps ;;
we all stay up late one night because we
can't go to sleep ` tears coming o u t '
thoughts deep in your head, so you `' .
sit & lay there & cry on your bed you
can't help but think about all the things
you had . you can't help but wonder ;;
why they make you so sad. you can't
help to think where did you go wronq.
you can't help to listen to your old song .
you can't help to think about him day &&
night. you can't help but wonder why ;;
this match isn't right. so you're happy `
to see him. it's been a lonq time ;; you're
happy to see him & you don't know why

Here's to all the girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning & be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, & moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, "I only want to be your friend", one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves & misses you. We deserve something, and this is our tribute. Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, & even snuck around to see him for while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, & ended up falling in love with him again.






We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us. Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to settle for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated. Here's for the ones who did their hair and make up & put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else.


I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go. Some days I make it through and then there are nights that never end.





Laugh your heart out, dance in the rain, cherish the memories but ignore the pain. Love and learn, forget and forgive because you only have one life to live.


I'm fine. I mean, not that I'm over it,
but little by little it's getting easier
to pretend it's easier. Which means easier
might be right around the corner.


Here's to this moment,
this moment in your life where
nothing at all is perfect,
but everything feels so right




We just wanted the one that we loved like that. Here's for the ones that finally realized that he never gave a crap about them. Here's for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, & the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better. This is for those confusing days, when you miss him & want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong and remember that relationships are like broken glass; sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together & get hurt. Remember the times you cried & how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. When 'your song' comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made & tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation & the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the crap he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night & how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to. One day you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It's going to hurt like crap, & it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal. This is for those girls who fell back in love with their ex, only to get hurt all over again.

Love is something you must learn to accept

Hold on, baby, you're losing
it
the water's
high, you're jumping
into it
and letting
go...and no one knows
you
cry, but you don't tell anyone
that you might
not be the golden
one
and you're
tied together with a smile

but you're coming undone

&& HOPEFULY she'll glue her heart
back together one last time before
it's completly broken.

What if? You loved someone...
What if? You thought they felt the same...
What if? You asked them who they loved...
What if? It wasn't your name...

&& Every time you smile at me, I feel my
troubles turn their back on me.

After all we've been through, baby, I don't
know if I'm ready to go through everything again
with someone else.

you may have popular friends
but i have real friends x3

She's a disaster.
She loses faith in herself every day. Her life is a mess and
she doesn't even care. No one understands her. And people
say stuff to put her down and no one even notices that she
might be breaking inside. Or they never notice that maybe she
needs a hug from someone. Or maybe all she needs is someone
to sit next to her and listen to her. Maybe that’s all she needs...

everything you say
is perfect.
every move you make
is smooth.
every single breath
you take.
i need you to know
i adore you.

I could spend hours getting ready
and trying to look perfect just for
you. and all she has to do is wear
sweatpants for you to think that
she looks better than I ever could

my theory is that,
if i keep my distance
you'll start missing me

did you know that her favorite color is pink,
or that she's terrified of deep water?
that she can't sleep without a blanket covering her feet
or when she thinks of you she smiles,
even though she doesn't want to care?
did you know that she loves the way you look at her
oh yeah, and about the fact that she's
absolutely crazy in love with you?

you don`t have to be together

for him to break your heart

We fell in love again, all things go.
All things go.
Drove to Chicago, all things know.
All things know.
We sold our clothes to the state; I don't mind.
I don't mind.
I made a lot of mistakes, in my mind.
In my mind.

(If I was crying in the van with my friends,
It was for freedom, from myself, and from the land.)



She stands with a well intentioned man,
But she can't relax, with his hand on the small of her back.
As the flashbulbs burn, she holds a smile
Like someone would hold a crying child.
Soon everybody will ask what became of you.
'Cause your heart was dying fast, and you didn't know what to do.
It seems that you lived in someone elses dream.

"Rush, rush, rush... all we do in this world is rush.
On the the next meeting, appointment, game...
And for what? To keep ourselves busy, I reckon.
We'd all be so much better off if we slowed down.
I did it, and I enjoy my life now."

"But how do we do that? It's hard.
We can't leave our lives behind,
And it's all we've ever known, too."

"It's not that hard. It's simple. Everything's simple.
That is, once you stop worrying about it.
Here's how I did it: I opened my eyes."


Contemplative beauty,
Another wistful day,
The frigid wind can't bother me,
When time is more than air,
And I see everywhere,
The life that's all around me,
The life that does surround me.
The moments I feel alive.




Stability, stability,
Hold for one more night!
A storm it is a'comin',
Hang tight and brave its' flight.
For long you have remained here,
A symbolic strike of strength,
And endure just one more bite, snare,
One more jab, one more blow, one more smite.
You'll make it through alright,
Just bent from the harsh, lonesome time.



what we could have been, 6:09 AM.

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ANNJILL.
I love holding my head up high, being ignorant about other things around me. Indecisive at precise moments & craves for perfection in life. Determined to be utmost best of all I can be. & just someday, i might just uncover everything that's underneath this skin =)
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